They say your life is composed into chapters.
Things begin & things end.
Change happens.
For the past year & a half, I’ve been living in Amsterdam, traveling throughout Europe, developing amazing new friendships, working for global multinationals, drinking Belgian beers, and cycling everywhere.
Next weekend, I’ll be flying back over the Atlantic, heading home.
Readjusting to life in the US, reuniting with friends & family, and soaking up all things American that I’ve been missing like crazy over here.
And you know what? I’m excited.
But of course, I’d be lying if I wasn’t torn with the idea of moving home. If I wasn’t second guessing my decision to leave Amsterdam. {Has it been long enough? Did I travel everywhere I wanted to? Am I ready to give up the bike lanes? And the koffie verkeerds?}
Maybe not, I don’t know.
But one thing I do know, is that if this decision wasn’t difficult, then it would simply mean that this past year and a half wasn’t important to me. All tough decisions are tough because they matter. If I wasn’t nervous or anxious about my decision, that would be weird. It’s like leaving a job you hate – that’s easy. Turning in your stuff on the last day and saying good riddance. A feeling of relief & and a smile on your face, no regrets.
This time I’ve spent in Europe is just the opposite. I’ve had an amazing time being an expat, I’ve grown & learned & tried & pushed myself, in ways that have forever changed my perspective on the world, cultures, living, life. So I’ll accept the fact that I can’t make a clean break, with no wondering what-if’s, because this ISN’T like a job I didn’t care about. I shouldn’t be able to leave without a second glance, because if I could – then what would it all be worth?
I’ve gained so much from this experience, things I will carry with me {in physical form & in my mind}, for the rest of my life. I’ll gladly exchange a bit of anxiety about my future today for all of these wonderful memories & experiences.
So, right now – loyal followers & readers & commenters – I want to thank you for sharing in my adventure abroad!
As this chapter of my life shifts into anew, this very blog is going to do the same.
I’m going to launch a brand-new site with a brand-new concept. I do hope you’ll check back here to see the changes.
Until then, all my best.
Xo, elz
PS A few of you have reached out to me, if you’d like to connect, please do drop me a line at ellen {at} companyofclever.com
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